Warning: I just wrote this. No proof reading, and I used my tablet, so anticipate spelling errors. Use creativity when trying to figure out what I meant.
So you know you look 'less than pleasant' when the doctor (who comes to check on you before 7am) says "how are you feeling? You look a little, um...". Exhausted was the word he left off. Or tired, or like a mess. I dont blame him. I LOVE my doctor. But how many if you have slept in a hospital for several weeks? I've done 1-2 nights before, and it gets rough. At night people still have to come and check vitals and stuff. I am actually very VERY fortunate to have an amazing staff who now lets me sleep through the night. We check on the babies at 10pm, then I get woken back up between 6 & 6:30 to start over. I don't have high blood pressure or anything so my nurses just skip checking my vitals through the night because sleep is more important.
The LAB doesn't have that memo. They come in when my blood work is expired. Midnight, 5am, it doesn't matter. I understand that they are working with policy and when they get their orders in and all. I'm just ranting here today.
The biggest thing- snd what I told my doctor is the cause of looking so tired- is that now I'm just having "pregnant sleep". It's this phase of pregnancy that, for me at least, is reserved for the last few weeks. It's to prepare your body for waking up in the night with a baby. That and your belly is so big that you are just uncomfortable no matter what and breathing gets harder. Not to mention the getting up to pee at night thing. I haven't slept through a night in months.
I'm tired. But this time around it's been kicked up a notch too. I'm on bed rest. I've been on bed rest for 3 1/2 months....15 weeks. I am tired ALL the time, but my body is also completely restless. I'm in limbo all the time of being tired, bored, exhausted, emotional, bored, nervous, ect, ect. And my body is stiff all the time too.
This has been such an interesting experience. One I hope to never repeat. Living in a hospital, even being on bed rest, is not something I would wish on anyone.
Thank your lucky stars that you can cook your own food the way you like it, or at least go pick up your favorite drive through meal. Be grateful that you can stand up long enough to do your hair and makeup for the day, and aren't going to just lay down and ruin it all if you try.
I see all if these pictures online of my friends showing off what they are doing this summer and I'm totally jealous (please don't stop posting- seriously I am living vicariously through you all!). I see you guys taking your kids swimming, hiking, on a picnic, to rodeos and fairs. You went camping or fishing, or just to the park. I don't post 90% if what my family does usually, but I'm thinking that next year I'll drive you guys crazy with what I'm upto. Maybe one of my friends will be cooped up in their house or a hospital and just be itching to know what others are up to out in the world. Social media has been a life-line to so much and many for me these past few months. Next year I can provide one of those life-lines for one of my friends perhaps.
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